Monday, June 1st changed my life!

It's so amazing how learning something so small, can change everything.

I LOVE MY LITTLE BOY!

When we learned that we could find out what we were having at 15 weeks, instead of 18-20 at the Doctor's office, we made an appointment! Las Vegas 4D baby here we come!

I made the appt for 7pm BECAUSE I had a hair appt already made for that day and I had to wait for everyone to get off of work. At the time it didn't seem like a big deal.

But it was! It had to be the longest day of my life!

Why didn't I think to change the day of my hair appt?

I was antsy and shakey and anxious. I had terrible thoughts all day that I was going to get all excited, and he/she was going to curl up in a ball and now show us the parts!

We were allowed to have up to 10 people.. so, we did just that! Grandpa & Grammy Clark (my parents) Papa & Mimi Zeedyk (Tyler's mom & step-dad) Uncle Kyle & Aunt Julie (my brother & siter-in-law) Jen (my best friend) Cody (Tyler's best friend) And of course, Tyler and I.

The group was fun, and I'm SO glad the ultrasound Tech, Victoria was, too! She handled the rowdy croud very well! It was so cool! It was way more advanced than a 2D at the Dr's office and it showed up on a big flat screen on the wall. Before she announced the sex, she was explaining other things. She got a BEAUTIFUL profile shot (she said it was "text book", I agreed, of course) She passed over the head, the cord, and everything else and Tyler's reaction to EVERYTHING was "is that a weiner??" "no Tyler. that's the arm" haha. He was so anxious to know. It seemed like it took forever to get to the sex part. But I soaked in every second. It was amazing to watch him move, and do summer salts, and the jokes that were flying a room were priceless. I wish we could've videod the whole thing, so many memories!!

She also did measurements for me, and determined that I'm due Nov. 19th, not the 21st like we thought. Hey, 2 days is 2 days!

Right before she announced BOY OR GIRL, we saw the little arm, reach down and hold the croch. No lie! It HAD to be a boy, right? He did it a few more times. I swear I had never heard the word penis, more in my life! Haha. Victoria finally said, "yep, IT'S A BOY!" She pointed out all the parts. Tyler was/is on a high. We both thought it was a boy all along, but just knowing for sure made everything so much more real! We weren't guessing anymore. I've been so happy ever since!

Before, we had discussed that we'd use either Oakley or Ryder for our boy. After the ultrasound, Tyler decided that he doesn't like Oakley anymore. You'd think, Ryder it is, then.. right? No. Tyler also wants to use his middle name (Wray pronouced Ray) And Ryder Wray, does NOT sound good to me. It sounds like "right away" Doesn't it? haha. I think, so at least. So I guess the name is up in the air. I think Tyler's afraid that it'll be our only boy and he'll never get to pass his middle name along, which I also understand.

I thought that I'd be a shopping nut after I found out, but believe it or not, I haven't bought anyting! I'm just so happy and content knowing what's in there! I love that I can talk to HIM, and know who I'm talking to. I love that when Tyler gets home, I can tell him, his little BOY missed him! I can't wait to meet him, he's already the highlight of my days!:)

It's been a while..

Recently I've been counting my blessings.
It's so hard sometimes to be thankful, and see the bright side of things.

The past couple months, I found out I was pregnant AND found out I was losing my job. It was kind of a blessing in disguise I guess. The timing seemed to be the worst. But I was SO thrilled about my pregnancy that I really didn't have time to be sad about losing my job.

When the day came however, it was a hard day. It's only been 5 days and I miss them so much. Spending 4-5 days per week, with 2 little ones, for almost 2 years and all of the sudden spending your days alone, is harder than I thought it would be. I catch myself wondering what they're thinking or doing, or if they're doing okay in daycare.

It's really just re-instilled what I already knew. I will be a stay at home mom. I will not leave my children with strangers. I know that if it breaks my heart this much, for 2 kids who aren't even mine to be in day care, I can only imagine how it would feel if they were my own.

It's crazy how the loss of money wasn't even thought of, or a concern. I knew we would get by. I know that through faith, we will get through this.

On a much lighter note...
I am 11w 2d today. I love that I turn another week on Sundays. I don't know why, but there's something awesome about remembering while I'm sitting in church. I just love it!

We scheduled our ultrasound to find out what I'm having. It's going to be May 29th at 12:15! We're cheaters, and made a "sneek peek" appt. I knew I couldn't wait until 18 weeks after I learned I could pay to find out at 15! (I know, I'm terrible!) But.. I can't wait, I seriously have a countdown going haha. Tyler's WHOLE family thinks it's a girl, and my WHOLE family thinks it's a boy. I'm not sure why, but no one, on either side has said the opposite. We'll see. I don't have a clue (and neither does anyone else) But Tyler really, really wants a boy!

The other day I did about 10 different "gender tests" It was ridiculous. It confused me even more. Half said boy, half said girl, and one said 45%boy 55% girl. Thanks! That helped (note the sarcasm) haha. I then learned patience, kind of. I won't be taking another one of those tests. I can wait another 4 weeks!

Since I'm out a job & have no life, I thought my house would be spotless. HA! It's anything but. We got my Grandma's baby grand piano out of here.. FINALLY. Only took a year. And into her house. It's so nice having 1/4 of my family room that I never had before. But since we took it out, my house, along with myself, has been a hot mess! I'm gradually doing small things..

Today: I did the dishes, and started some laundry (Tyler ran out of socks..) and I'm thinking about dusting. Things are hard enough when you're tired, fat & pregnant, but add the blues to that, and forget it!

I know that through faith, I will get through this!

Easter, and my 7 week.

Well Easter was a blast. We went to Mission Hills Park on Sat. for a Picinic. We do it every year with my mom's twin sister's family, and who ever else shows up. It's freakin windy EVERY year, you'd think we'd learn to move it inside.. ha. Don't mind my cute hood. My little brother, Seth is so cute, I couldn't help but share:) If I have a little boy, I'll be thrilled, just because Seth changed my whole perspective on little boys.

It was also my dad's 50th Birthday. I can't believe my dad's 50, and has a 1 year old. I guess it'll keep him young;). Since it got so windy at the park, we took his cake and presents home. I made him a home-made banana-nut-cake. It's SO good, and easy. It's his favorite, and his grandma's recipe. Let me know if you want it, it'll be a family fave!

My brother, Kyle and his wife Julie stayed at our house, since my mom always has sick kids and Julie is also pregnant. It was fun doing Easter baskets here for the first time. I loved getting stuff for Tyler, and he got me a cute baby carriage charm for my Pandora charm necklace:) I love him and I love looking at my neck everyday and thinking about our little one!

We also went shooting while they were here. Just the 4 of us. It was a lot of fun, I only shot one round, but usually I don't want to go at all, so I was pretty proud of myself:)

As for the pregnancy--

I owe my life (or it seems) to Tara Hendrickson, my neighbor. She mentioned taking my prenatal vitimin right before bed, and myabe it would help with the sickness, and.. IT DID! Woohoo, I kind of feel like I feel "too good" now. I'm sure everything's fine, but I felt so crappy before, it seems too nice now haha.

We had a little scare on Friday. My OB office called Tyler and sounded pretty urgent to talk to me, they had my number wrong, (a 4 where a 9 should've been) and wouldn't give him any info, and just said to have me call ASAP. Since it was my day off, Tyler called me at 9, woke me up and scared the sh*t out of me! I called, and it wasn't really anything. I was relieved, and kind of pissed at the lady, at the same time. They wanted me to do blood work 48 hours apart, and to tell me I had a yeast infection(TMI?, but really, I had no idea, I still don't believe it) Do you have any idea how embarrassing it is to buy monostat 3? UGH, anyway. The Dr. also wants to do another ultrasound. Since my LMP was december and I'm clearly not 16 weeks, he just wants to do an ultrasound at 1 before my prenatal at 2 o'clock so he can give me an accurate due date and stuff. I'm pretty excited, hoping we can acutally see and hear the baby's heartbeat since my ultrasound at 5.5 weeks showed nothing but a blob. When I go in I should be 1 day away fom 8 weeks (from what I was told last time.) I'm really excited. I'll keep you posted. :)

Just let me complain a bit..

This past weekend, Tyler and I went to Coalinga, CA to a rodeo. I was pretty excited to have Friday off, so I could go (since it was a Friday-Saturday rodeo.) It took 6 hours to get there and we didn't leave until about 5:30 Thursday night. I was STARVING and SICK by Baker, we stopped at Chipotle (which is all I've craved) and.. I hated it, it made me even more sick..



I guess I can check Chipotle off my cravings list, for now..



Not to be a Debby-Downer, but really, the weekend did not get much better! The only places to eat in this terrible town were: Taco Bell, McDonalds, Carles Jr. & Burger king. I had a bad experience at Carles Jr. the past weekend, so that was out of the question. It was SO bad. I've been trying to eat super healthy, and I've been eating about once an hour. Well you can't eat fast food once an hour.. 1. you'll go broke and 2. you'll have a heart attack. So I was sick, the whole time & even more sick on the 6 hour drive home.

Boy does it feel good to be home!

I told Tyler I'm done traveling, at least until my second trimester!

Life at home hasn't gotten much better, but it definitely has been much easier to get food when needed (I figured about every 1.5 hours on the dot, or I'm sick). I keep telling myself....

"and this too, shall pass!"

On a WAY lighter note, I think I've found the travel system that I want. 5 star safety rating and awesome costumer reviews. OH and not to mention the $150 unexpected discount the website applied when I added it to the cart. It's a little, okay a lot, more expensive than the norm. "graco" or whatever brand. But is it not totally Tyler and I?! Also, My mom is paying for our travel system, but because of the price we will have to pay for a small portion of it. I think it will be the one. I feel so lame for looking, and picking things this early, but I figure if we buy things gradually the next 7 months than it won't seem so expensive in the long run [hopefully]. I also get FREE shipping, and NO sales tax ($30) if I send it to Kyle's place in UT. woohoo, who doesn't love saving $180?! Thank you, diapers.com!

I'll keep posting as I find other things I think I can't live without, and keep you updated on the little nugget!

(11.5 weeks & counting till we find out what it is!)

Thanks for letting me vent, even if you stopped reading after my first 5 minutes of complaining;)

one two or three? AH

Well, as most of you know by now...

I'm PREGNANT!

Tyler and I found out for sure, last Monday. I was still in denial after 1 pregnancy tests, so I took another, and another, and well.. I guess since those things are 99% accurate, I'm a believer!

I probably should've waited to tell Tyler when he got home, but I couldn't so I called him at work. He thought I was lying... seriously, I had to convince him haha. I wish I could've seen his face but 8 hours seemed like an eternity away!

Needless to say, he was still excited when he got home. We've been trying since November (and if you didn't know that, don't feel left out. Neither did anyone else). Tyler slept the whole night with his hand on my belly, I loved it!:) I know this, because I didn't sleep... at all!

I went to the Doctor on Wednesday to confirm pregnancy, which was positive also. I have my first ultrasound on Wednesday.. and just in case you were forgot, I'm impatient, and if 8 hours felt like an eternity, can you imagine my weeks?

If my due date was based on my last period (like normal people) It would be September 26th.. But, I went to the Doctor the end of January because I had missed, and the test was negative. So when I thought I'd get answers, I got nothing. They said I'll have to wait to see the size of the baby on the ultrasound and the Doctor can choose weather or not to change my due date based on what he sees.

This weekend we went up to Provo to visit my brother and his wife. I wish I knew what I was having! Julie and I went to the Quilted Bear, and there was SO much cute stuff!

So since the "cat's been out of the bag" I've been told it's triplets, one of my friends had a dream about it, which wouldn't be all that weird.. but SO DID I! And I've had a million people tell me it's twins, nice of them, huh? I wouldn't mind twins but Tyler's convinced that if it's twins.. they'll be our first.. AND last! haha

I'll keep you updated on my appointments. I'm so thrilled for my ultrasound, just so I can know how many little nuggets are in there!

PREGNANCY MENU (thus far)
Fried pickles
dill pickles WITH sliced cheddar cheese, on the same plate
water (I can't tell you how much I hate water!)
Carmel delites
MEXICAN FOOD
I've had chipotle twice (and wanted it every other day, but Tyler tells me no)
Cheveys
Del taco
& on the way home from UT, there was no tacobell to be found, BUT, did you know Carl's Jr is also a Green Burrito?:)

May not sound all that weird to you, but trust me, I don't normally eat like this. :)

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